I like to be happy. But sometimes my emotional state is hanging on to unresolved issues that insert themselves between me and my determined cheerful “go-luckiness.” When this mood takes me on, I can turn and face it, or I can vent.
But what I have lately discovered about venting, is that it really does not make me feel better. Oh, it might for a moment, but I have not dealt with the underlying emotion, so it will return. And I have also noticed about venting, is that it really does not make other people feel good, unless they are hooking into their issues that are like mine. Then we all feel empowered by our anger for a while, but those underlying emotions are still there. Discharged yes, but still there.
When I turn and face those underlying emotions, I have learned they have a lot to teach me. My anger at some one can point out how they are taking advantage of me. Or that jealousy I feel because a good friend of mine, a well deserving artist, got a solo show at a prestigious gallery? Well, that is simply my Subconscious telling me I have not been giving enough time to my own art, or that I need to get busy and try to get some gallery shows lined up.
When I take time to listen to my Shadow emotions instead of venting that energy into the world at large, I gain information about issues that are real and close to me. I had a conversation with the person I felt was taking advantage of me, and I realized I do not have time to pursue a career as an artist right now, but that, yes, I would feel better making some space in my day for the act of drawing. I can be happy for my deserving artist friend, because she has put her efforts and energy into succeeding at her goal.
Listening to myself leaves me in a better place emotionally, and guides my actions toward those goals that are most important to me. My prayer for today:
Creator, when I am feeling myself in the grip of my Shadow, walk with me as I turn to face the messages they bring me with love, courage, and the courtesy to not shed my negative feelings on others. Amen.