365 Days of Prayer – Day 41

This morning things were out of sorts with my partner. I was in a good mood and he was trying to start an argument. I was doing my best not to fall into his mood. Misery loves company, but I don’t love misery. So these things were going on today.

I took my morning Wind Walk, and suddenly a key teaching of Gurdjieff popped into mind and I understood it in a new way. In Beelzebub’s Tales to His Grandson, somewhere in the Purgatory chapter, where G. describes the laws of three and seven, he says, “The higher blends with the lower in order to actualize the middle.”

My partner had been trying to lower my mood in order to raise his own. We are all connected, and we do this in groups. I remembered times I had with unconscious motivation done the same to him. So it is important to me to share that I write this without blame. It’s just how people are. We vent, but in venting, there is a sharing of negative emotions that makes no one really feel good, except in that moment where we have group agreement.

So, what to do with this information? How to hang on to my good mood?

It took some work, but finally I remembered that I am always connected to Spirit, drawing the sustenance for my being from Spirit, so I simply turned to Spirit in my prayer.

Creator, I have just now remembered that as I draw my life essence from you, I draw my life breath from you, and my energy from you. Please flow through me to release any negative emotions I encounter today, my own and others, so that in this practice I might bring more of your joy into the world around me today. Amen.

Author: Susan Hintz-Epstein

I am an artist, an intuitive Rune interpreter, a Reiki master, Mesa carrier, and student of the soul. Personally, my best answers to the question of life have come from my relationships, Nature, the Gurdjieff work, and a practical meditative/prayer life. Currently I am writing a book on my experiences with the Norns, Scandinavian goddesses of Destiny, and Hela, called Goddesses of the Nitty Gritty: Called to the Well of Being.

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