365 Days of Prayer – Day 53

I keep a little quote by my desk that reads: You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face… do the thing you think you cannot do. – Eleanor Roosevelt

Today I was caught up in old moods and I have felt very vulnerable. During these moods, I dive into the pain as I was taught by Life Coach Brigid Hopkins, and try to expand into it until it pops and I come out the other side. When I do this, I stop trying to protect myself from remembered pain. I stop needing to defend my ego. I come to awareness of the thoughts behind the feelings, and I put the Byron Katie method to work.

At sixty-one, I finally have realized just how often learned patterns of behavior that I created to protect myself from emotional pain have interfered with work that was meaningful to me. I resolve not to let those patterns stop me any more. I had to identify them. Sometimes I had to have help – psychotherapy, Soul Coaching, or even just friends catching me and making me aware.

I do feel vulnerable. I am more aware. Just for today, I will walk forward into the mood and see what happens.

Dear Creator, when I am feeling vulnerable is when I seek you the most. Make me comfortable with vulnerability, because my intention is to always seek you. Amen.

Author: Susan Hintz-Epstein

I am an artist, an intuitive Rune interpreter, a Reiki master, Mesa carrier, and student of the soul. Personally, my best answers to the question of life have come from my relationships, Nature, the Gurdjieff work, and a practical meditative/prayer life. Currently I am writing a book on my experiences with the Norns, Scandinavian goddesses of Destiny, and Hela, called Goddesses of the Nitty Gritty: Called to the Well of Being.

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