Prayers of the Faithful released by Notre-Dame fire

The heartbreaking scene of the cathedral of Notre-Dame on fire horrified and saddened many. Sometimes we wonder why these horrible things happen. As I was watching the clouds this morning driving out on my morning school bus route, I pondered that the clouds held a formation I had not seen before, and all of a sudden I knew that the fire had released the prayers of the faithful that had been collecting in that honorable cathedral for hundreds of years.

The clouds held the shape of a wing, and under that wing were tiny fists of clouds of the type that gather together preceding a rainstorm. I thought of the wings of angels and guardian spirits whose prayers gather to lift us up. The Ancestors had been calling to me since early morning, and I had been singing them awake with my own song of prayer: “Please come and gather to support the human collective as humanity struggles to overcome its own darkness and grow into light.” I suppose this was my answer.

It is not coincidence that Light is equated with the process of Enlightenment or Awakening, just as it is no coincidence that evil is called darkness or shadow. I cannot know Light without Darkness, and I cannot know Darkness without Light. What is darkness, but light unaware of itself? All of the Great Teachers have taught something about waking up to higher consciousness, and part of this process is the practice of forgiveness. As we struggle collectively and individually on the political scene and elsewhere in life, it helps to remember that whether we agree with the other person or not, opinions expressed and sincerely listened to by each party can blend for the benefit of all of us. Keeping an open heart and an open mind is key.

I’m not intending to stand on the bully pulpit, but I wanted to let this be known: the Divine has released the prayers of the faithful over centuries because this energy is needed by humanity and the Earth at this time. When I felt that soothing prayer energy, my own heart lifted, and I wanted to encourage anybody who will listen, to pray, pray fervently with all the light you have. Find reasons to be grateful, no matter what your troubles. Find reasons to love. No matter what the color of our skin, we are all human, and this Earth is the only home we have.

Intentional Sensation & Body Awareness

Intentional Sensation seems to me such a simple thing when I explain it, but when I look around and observe human life, it seems so profound, because conscious attention to the sensation of our bodies can inform us about who we are, how we are, and our presence in the world. I think for the most part our body is just something we take for granted, or else we have surrendered to ideas that are not our own and inherited a negative body image.

When I was a kid, Twiggy was the rage, and anyone who was not ultra skinny learned to hate their body. In other eras, it was Betty Davis’s eyes, or Betty Grable’s legs. Maybe these stereotypes reflect a subconscious longing to fit in, but that is not the goal of any consciousness raising group or program I have belonged to.

So what exactly is my point? I believe that we are all special and unique, and that we have the potential to develop that individuality toward a meaningful and fulfilling life. Ignore this if you already have a meaningful and fulfilling life, because I’m preaching to the choir.

If we are people who are hung up on body image, we are people who care more for how others see us than how we see ourselves. Take a new look in the mirror. What do you like? What do you dislike? What do you see? Throw those ideas away. Look into your own eyes. Gaze a little deeper. Do you begin to feel the stirring presence of your own soul? Do you begin to feel the stirring curiosity: What is this person? Forget for a moment the image you’ve been staring at automatically for the past – how old are you anyway – number of years, and ask a new question? Who am I? How am I? What am I today?

Chances are you can’t answer this except by defining the roles you play. Dad, Mom, sister, brother, cousin, the job you have, the money you have or don’t have, the car you drive. Go deeper. What are you without the stuff of your life? Is this an idea of yourself? Or a feeling of yourself? Take a moment more. Let’s try something new. Take a deep breath. Another.

I know. Okay, this author is boring, let’s click away from this blog.

But really, if you are still with me, with each deep breath, you are feeling a little more relaxed in your own body, are you not? Take a moment or two more. Stretch where you feel stiff. Didn’t that feel good? If it did, go deeper. Scan your body with your attention for areas of stiffness, areas of relaxed, areas of pain. Choose one, and breath into it. Slowly, deeply, meaningfully. Are you experiencing relief?

This is a taste of what it feels like to live mindfully in your own body. This can lead to a taste of what it feels like to be grateful for this body, this earth life, these sensations and these opportunities to taste, touch, see, listen, smell.

Intentional sensation is an all-body experience that I learned from my Gurdjieff mentor Donald V. Petacchi. With intentional sensation you can walk, play sports, ride horses, and turn any kind of movement into a meditation. You can relax into classical music, turn a walk in the garden into a mystical experience, practice experiencing the sublime. So if you’ve stuck with me this far in this reading, take a walk today. Breathe with awareness. Move with awareness. Have attention for the sensations your body provides you. Have a meaningful life.

Weekly Rune Draw for April 14 to April 20, 2019

This Sunday is the weekly Rune Draw for April 14 to April 20, 2019. These Runes are from the Anglo-Saxon Futhark. JERA, the first Rune, represents the cycles of life as experienced through the seasons of Nature. The contrast of the warm and cold halves of the year speak to Contrast. Contrast is a way in which we learn to understand the world and by which we define our experience.









The second Rune, DAGAZ, also infers contrast in its paired aspects of Day and Night. Daylight becomes a symbol for enlightenment as we move from life experience to life experience. We gain wisdom as we ponder our life experiences for what we have learned. For many of us the past few weeks have provided a trial by fire as we have cleaned mental house and adapted to challenges that have arisen in life that have demanded of us an ability to stand firm in our own integrity.









The final Rune, KAUN, evolved from the Elder Futhark’s KENAZ, retaining the earlier meaning with the added meaning of things that we have learned through pain. Pain teaches us what to avoid or how to structure a task differently. When I did my apprenticeship to the element of Fire, Fire taught me a lot about structure. I had to structure the wood so that the fire would burn well. So too can the contrasts of life teach us the routines that provide structure for our personal growth and the expansion of consciousness.

Contrast provides a structure upon which new awareness can take form. Today might be a good day for time in Nature to allow the cycles of the seasons to open you to a new way of knowing. New impressions fuel creativity.

Check out my 2019 Spring Psychic Calendar , and please, if you haven’t already, win a FREE Rune Reading just by signing up to my email list by the end of April. The link is on the 2019 Calendar.

On that note, have a blessed day, and see you next week!

Spring 2019 Show Calendar

Upcoming shows:

RUNE Divination at the SHIFT Fair NY at the Quality Inn, Saturday, April 27, 2019 from 9:30 am to 4:00 pm and 7:00pm  to 9:00 pm. Located at 5206 State Highway 23 in Oneonta, NY.

RUNE Divination at the Metaphysical/Holistic/Craft Vendor Fair on Saturday, May 4th from 10:00 am to 5:00 pm, located at The Parish On Broadway, 730 Broadway, in Utica, NY. Fundraiser for the WNO Food Pantry.

RUNE Divination at The Gypsy’s Closet, 2nd Annual Psychic Fair starting at 11:00 am on Sunday, May 19th, located at 9488 State Route 32, in Freehold, NY.

Highlight your summer with a RUNE Divination at OPUS40 on Sunday, July 14, 2019 from 10:00 am to 4:00 pm. This outdoor show at the sculpture park feature the music of Gamelan, Reiki healers, sound healing, and the Psychics.

And just when you thought life couldn’t get any better, I have decided to extend March’s offer of FREE Rune Draw through April 30. Sign up here.

Book Review: Winds of Spirit

Ever since the day I sought to meet the Holy, and the wind came up on a still day, the wind has been a special comfort to me. For Christians, the Holy Spirit is the Comforter; since “spirit” means “breath,” I have associated the Holy Spirit with Divine Wind. So that when I came across Renee Baribeau online, I began to follow her work. Renee is the Hay House author of Winds of Spirit.

Winds of Spirit is a original and unique book. Renee got the idea one day to follow creation stories and discovered that the Creator gods were often wind gods. Renee identifies the types of winds and how they affect living on a daily basis. Tailwinds, crosswinds, and headwinds among others can affect our moods, our patterns, and shape our creativity in art, craft, business, and avocations. Renee provides exercises for working with the winds in ways that enhance spiritual growth from identifying and clearing resistances to change that occur in the body to manifesting what you need. Renee teaches ways to work toward your authentic self.

Wind Knots, Wind Whistling, and using the Winds to clear resistance from your life, or seeking spiritual counsel from the 32 Wind gods and goddesses at the back of her book  are other practices. Available to enhance your practice with Winds of Spirit are a Wind Bag of cards with the names of these winds and a Wind Whistle, which can be used to call in the Four Directions, grounding yourself, and healing, here.

I’ve been fortunate to study with  Renee Baribeau through her online Spring and Fall Wind Mastery classes, and her Winds of Spirit class at Omega in August 2019. You can find her on Facebook on the Wind Clan page, on The Shaman’s Cave (a podcast she hosts with Sandra Ingerman), or at The Practical Shaman. Community YOUniversity is a place you can join on Facebook to have a truly supportive and loving community. Weekly video conferences with Renee’s students exist for continued engagement.Winds of Spirit has given me additional tools to use in my healing and divination practices, and is a practical addition to my library. All in all, I believe that Winds of Spirit is a book that belongs on the book shelf of every shamanic practitioner and healer.




Healing the Heart from Brokenness

Healing the heart from the brokenness of painful emotions requires the courage to move through the pain, and doing the work to find solutions. Without fail, this means catching our triggers before they manifest, examining those thoughts and beliefs surrounding the habit of negative emotions, and seeking new affirmations and self-talk that will change the outcomes around those triggered behaviors. This is where the role of forgiveness and release come into play.

How can I identify when these emotional energy loops are at play? I can become aware of areas in my body that don’t feel good, don’t feel fluid, don’t give me the ease of flexibility I expect through the practice of Intentional Sensation.*

Candace Pert’s important book, The Molecules of Emotion, testifies that emotions are stored in the body. I am sixty years old now, so I can add to this testimony that having a stiff neck has reflected stubborn beliefs I was unwilling to give up, that my left knee stiffens up when I am holding on to anger, and that my twisted tailbone may have its source in my support job of driving a school bus, but that has reflected a fear of money when finances are tight or overdrawn. Louise Hay’s book Heal Your Body holds many more similar correlations.

In areas of resistance, such emotions as anger, depression, resentment, melancholy, guilt, shame, jealousy, envy, laziness, and the kind of pride that separates me from connection to others can be found. If people allow these to trigger through blame and projection, they become destructive. Venting might make one feel good for a moment, but when those negative expressions come back to us in the form of broken friendships and trust, that no longer feels good.

If I can instead catch that emotion before it manifests, it becomes a guide to teach me what I need in my own life. For example, when I observed envy in myself, it was due to a friend who has become extremely successful as a multi-media artist. If I would like that for myself, I need to consider the things I would need to do to achieve that. Other friends have written books. I want to do that too, so I have set aside time each day to get the process of writing done. For me this has meant sacrificing an idea that “someday” I would have time to work on that. At sixty, that someday might never come, so it might as well be now.

Emotions are not always so benign as the recognition of envy that told me what I needed to do to have what I wanted. Women healers  are a collective group that has expressed pent up rage at sexual abuse, persecution as witches, and the total negation of the wisdom of half of the human species. Each of us has experiences that are unique to us. Beginning the process of listening to our own feelings and emotions is the first step toward wholeness.

* Intentional Sensation is the practice of sensory attention to our body, and has been taught in the Gurdjieff work as one aspect of self-observation of the physical-emotional-intellectual complex that is a human being.

Rune Draw for April 7 to 13 2019

Good morning! The Rune draw for April 7 to April 13, 2019 was THURISAZ, OTHILA, and HAGALAZ. With these three showing up there are two ways to divine the week ahead: the outer life and the inner life.

Outer life: THURISAZ indicates natural forces beyond our control. These may be adverse astrological influences or things as large as tsunamis and floods, wildfires, or earthquakes. OTHILA’s influence suggests that these disruptions will come in the arenas of real property, real estate, land holdings, or even within family. HAGALAZ, the force of sudden change, suggests that the best thing one can do is ride it out, but look for opportunities disguised as loss. When the Chaos of Change arises, look to the best that can be had from the situation.

Inner life: THURISAZ indicates that the emotional and mental clearings some of us have been doing over the past few weeks are going to continue, and OTHILA points out that this effort lies in the direction of the Ancestors. Most of us have baggage that has accompanied our families over the generations, and for those of us who are doing the work of inner cleansing, HAGALAZ promises change. This is a time to look to our Roots, discern what is good, what is not so good, and what can be done about it. The deepening process of forgiveness, even when you are not forgiven in turn, frees your heart and your mind to best carry on your own life. I have heard it said that the work we do in this vein also frees our ancestors and descendants forward and backward for seven generations.

If you have not worked with your ancestors before, there are practices you can establish – whatever appeals to you. When I began working with the Norse, I read the blog of Galina Krasskova, who suggested creating an Ancestor altar. You can establish this space anywhere in your home. I put together old photographs of my departed ones, and eventually I added to that a structure of three shelves that to me represent the Otherworlds of the shaman – the middle world, upper, and underworlds. But a simple space with photographs and items of reminiscence will do. I often light a candle, offer water or coffee, or even a bit of good homemade food in honor of all that they sacrificed in order that I might be here today. A friend of mine recites the names of her dead daily, so this can be a mental practice also. As in anything, trust your intuition, as it is the whisper of your soul.

I leave you today with a blessing and an invitation before the end of April 2019. If you sign up to my email list at the link here, you will receive a FREE Rune reading by email and the photo of the Rune drawn for you.

Contradiction Brings Stuggle

Contradiction brings struggle. Whether the contradiction exists inside of us or outside of us, a struggle exists between two forces. The struggle might be as simple as realizing I am cold when I want to be hot and putting on a sweater to warm up, or the struggle might be between two armed forces trying to overcome the other for matters of economic principle or a higher ideal, such as letting all of humanity be free.

When Odin first came to me, he greeted me with the statement, “Wilkommen al kriege.” Perusing a German dictionary, I discovered this meant, “Welcome the warrior.” A warrior, in Angeles Arien’s book The Four-Fold Way, is one who shows up. When I show up to my areas of resistance, a very real opportunity exists for soul growth.

If one comes to struggle and contradiction unconsciously, these are things that just happen to us. Accident.

If one comes to struggle with a conscious effort, one can bring to bear the full force of one’s own will within the struggle. And this is an entirely different thing. Destiny.

There is more I intend to say about this later.

RUNE DRAW for week of March 31 to April 6, 2019

The Rune reading for the week ahead comes from the Anglo-Saxon Futhark. The first Rune drawn was AC, meaning Oak tree, and it appeared in reverse. The Oak tree, a strong hard wood tree with a deep tap root, draws the lightning. In some manner this week, some of us have been hit hard, possibly with old issues or old patterns of thinking that we are now asked to break in order to move forward. This has been a theme of these readings for a few weeks now.

When we have been hit hard by life to the point where we have a moment of clarity as to the relative unreality of all that we have been taught to believe, or  come to think we ought to believe, a moment comes when we have the possibility of arising to a new level of consciousness. I don’t know what your personal story is, but I had been hit hard by sciatica this month, and pain gave me that great gift of in-seeing.

I am a “tree whisperer” and there is an Oak tree I visit almost daily beside the Hudson River. Yesterday that tree enveloped me in its peace and serenity, so that I was able to stop troubling thoughts and rise above them to the peace within my own soul. My body broke down because I had the wrong idea that I had to do it al alone. There are other beings in the world to help us – our families, our friends, people of good heart, our pets, and trees.

I share this story, because the next Rune that I turned up for us is LAGUZ, the Rune of Flow. This can be a time of flowing into new forms, new ideals, or even transitioning into a total transformation of self. Humanity has the choice, as individuals we have the choice always, to rise above troubling ideas and emotions into a broader perspective. If I choose to only dwell upon what is not right, I will never see the possibility of the choices before me to make things right. Choice is our power, and its most potent moment is the Present. Now. I can rise up above old issues of anger and anxiety. We can rise up above old issues, whatever they are for us individually.

The final Rune for this week, DAGAZ, says this best. Day is a period of transitions – night into dawn into day and again into evening. The shadows do pass into the light of day again, and in fact if we didn’t have light, we would not be able to be aware of the shadows. So the message for this week is: Rise up, rise above the shadows that drive you into a broader perspective, and then you can truly access the power of your present moment now, your true point of power.

Life Changes

Recently I had a bout of sciatica that took me way down to the point where all I wanted was relief from the pain. This planted the seed of a new metanoia in my relationship to the divine.

The term “metanoia” is explained in Maurice Nicoll’s book The Mark. He discusses the word’s translation as “repentance” in the New Testament as being inadequate in its meaning. Instead, he says, “metanoia” refers to a deeper process, of grieving or suffering to the point where life as seen through the physical senses seems unreal, and this is the point at which a change of consciousness, or waking up, becomes possible. Faith is more than simple belief, but an inner knowing of something higher. People may have many such moments in their lives; these moments provide opportunity toward an awakening of the higher mind. Not everyone makes conscious use of these moments for spiritual evolution; some people’s lives are so hard that they give up on hope and simply do the best they can for themselves.

The challenge for me has been to turn away from old judgmental thoughts that no longer serve me because they were fed by unhappy experiences I had as a child. These thoughts generally followed a comparative pattern, and when I felt someone, usually my sister, had something I wanted or I felt I had been treated unfairly, these thoughts manifested as critical judgments of other people that fed my unhappy ego. I needed to feel superior to other people because I felt so diminished in myself. My sister was the one who commanded the attention in our family, because she wasn’t well. I lacked the parental nourishment that would let me feel satisfied and joyful in my accomplishments.

When the pain had taken me down to the point where all I wanted was relief, there was room for the divine to enter. I received help in seeing through my childhood memories to the grief that was buried deeply inside my nerves and bones. I allow myself to process this grief, and as I do this inner work, my inner child begins to experience levels of joy and clarity I have not known for a long time. I still hear my ego mind repeating those old judgmental stories, but now I can see them for what they are: stories that keep me from living in my fullest happiness. I can ask myself whether this story is true, and if it is not, I can re-write a new tale.

Meanwhile, there are new connections to make, new relationships to form, and old relationships to deepen. I feel like a new person, and I am still learning sides to Susan that I was unaware she had – I have.

The journey to self-knowledge is not always an easy one, but the person I am becoming is happier and more able to take better care of herself. Why am I sharing something so personal as this on my blog? It is my hope that people going through these hard times will turn inward and see what is possible for them with the awakening to a higher state of mind. It is so very worthwhile.