Life Changes

Recently I had a bout of sciatica that took me way down to the point where all I wanted was relief from the pain. This planted the seed of a new metanoia in my relationship to the divine.

The term “metanoia” is explained in Maurice Nicoll’s book The Mark. He discusses the word’s translation as “repentance” in the New Testament as being inadequate in its meaning. Instead, he says, “metanoia” refers to a deeper process, of grieving or suffering to the point where life as seen through the physical senses seems unreal, and this is the point at which a change of consciousness, or waking up, becomes possible. Faith is more than simple belief, but an inner knowing of something higher. People may have many such moments in their lives; these moments provide opportunity toward an awakening of the higher mind. Not everyone makes conscious use of these moments for spiritual evolution; some people’s lives are so hard that they give up on hope and simply do the best they can for themselves.

The challenge for me has been to turn away from old judgmental thoughts that no longer serve me because they were fed by unhappy experiences I had as a child. These thoughts generally followed a comparative pattern, and when I felt someone, usually my sister, had something I wanted or I felt I had been treated unfairly, these thoughts manifested as critical judgments of other people that fed my unhappy ego. I needed to feel superior to other people because I felt so diminished in myself. My sister was the one who commanded the attention in our family, because she wasn’t well. I lacked the parental nourishment that would let me feel satisfied and joyful in my accomplishments.

When the pain had taken me down to the point where all I wanted was relief, there was room for the divine to enter. I received help in seeing through my childhood memories to the grief that was buried deeply inside my nerves and bones. I allow myself to process this grief, and as I do this inner work, my inner child begins to experience levels of joy and clarity I have not known for a long time. I still hear my ego mind repeating those old judgmental stories, but now I can see them for what they are: stories that keep me from living in my fullest happiness. I can ask myself whether this story is true, and if it is not, I can re-write a new tale.

Meanwhile, there are new connections to make, new relationships to form, and old relationships to deepen. I feel like a new person, and I am still learning sides to Susan that I was unaware she had – I have.

The journey to self-knowledge is not always an easy one, but the person I am becoming is happier and more able to take better care of herself. Why am I sharing something so personal as this on my blog? It is my hope that people going through these hard times will turn inward and see what is possible for them with the awakening to a higher state of mind. It is so very worthwhile.

 

Turning Inward

Turning inward factors into my weekly Rune forecast lately. How you or I respond to events that happen to us can engender an entire wealth of experiences. Before I turned to face the unpleasant stuff in life it was easy to give up and be a quitter, but once I began turning to face my fears, I gained something from that simple experience: most of my fears are just ideas that live in my head.

When I face my fear, I ask myself, “What is the worst thing I can imagine?” After I get that list, I go down the items one by one, and I ask, “Is this even likely to be true?” Usually I can wipe the fear off the slate right there, but every now and then something will come up that gives me the goosebumps.

There was the time I casually said to my husband I would go on the roof to clean the moss off that was growing there, and then I froze on the ladder due to my fear of heights. I faced myself down and did the job any way. It had to be done. I shook the whole time, but once off that ladder, deep breathing never felt so good. But then there are the more subtle fears that have their roots in not feeling good enough or capable enough. These fears may have their roots in unresolved emotional issues buried in the unconscious aspects of our being. Some of these can be dug out with the help of psychological professionals, but when talking things out results in talking around things instead of getting at things, there is another thing you might try.

I have found that just before or after sleep, my mind is often receptive to the power of suggestion. I find those moments when I am consciously trying to work through stuck points to be valuable questions to ask of my Subconscious in just this way.  Here is an ideal moment when the Subconscious and the waking consciousness can communicate. I had been drifting a bit in my spiritual clearing practice and noticing that I felt off-kilter. I asked my Subconscious upon waking one morning, “What is the next soul issue I have to work on?” I waited a moment, and I felt a black energy at the back of my head, just at the base of my skull where it meets the spine. Then I said, “I don’t know what to do with this!” Something in me took pause, and the energy reassembled itself into the symbol of a Black Swan and I “heard” the names “Leda and the Swan,” and “Swan Lake.” Both relate to how men have used women, and I discovered in myself there a deep pool of anger at men. As I learned how to work on these issues, layers began to peel away for me, and I am more able to step into my own power.

That experience was particularly deep, but I have also found this method to be a reliable guide to intuitively know what decisions are best for me, and those that aren’t. I invite you to try this method, and please share with me whether it works as well for you.

Rune Draw for Week of March 24 to 30, 2019

Good morning! This week’s Rune Draw bears another powerful message. SOWELO as the Sun shines upon everyone, good or ill. This is for us to remember as the human collective consciousness is shifting like the seasons. JERA, the Rune for the year, seasonal changes, and harvest speaks to the cycles of reaping the harvest of our own actions. This may bypass some people, but for those of you who like me are caught in tangled emotional issues, the Sun calls us to rise above blaming and accusations. The political climate remains a huge trigger for some folks, but instead of blaming the politicians, the next Rune ISA tells us that it is time to take inventory of our self and what can we contribute to the collective for an outcome we are willing to live with. ISA declares that this is a time of stand still, so this is another opportunity to take advantage of its reflective properties for further inner work.

Catch catastrophe thinking as it arises and before it manifests into physical action where you cannot undo it. Catch limiting thoughts and negative self-beliefs. Swipe, delete, and reset.

Stop blaming others for your disappointed expectations.

Dig deep for your own dreams and fill your thoughts with your positive accomplishments.

Go forward on Faith. This will establish a firm, positive foundation for the road ahead.

Let go of control issues.

Have a blessed week!

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Psychic Event Calendar for 2019 So Far

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Friends, the SHIFT Holistic & Psychic Fair is always a lot of fun with talented psychics and artisan craft booths. I will be attending on Saturday, April 27th, for Intuitive Rune interpretation, Soul Map reading, oracle card reading, and Winds of Spirit guidance. To schedule an appointment with me, please call (518) 947-0645 or email: susan.hintz.epstein@gmail.com

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

For the second year in a row, I will be a Rune reader at The Gypsy’s Closet Psychic Fair. This event created a lot of interest last year, and expects to again this year. Nornir’s Corner booth will be set up Sunday, May 19th, in the big tent. Hope to see all of you there! To schedule an appointment with me, please call (518) 947-0645 or email: susan.hintz.epstein@gmail.com

Reading the Runes, Oracle cards, and providing Winds of Spirit guidance.

Although I do not have all the information yet, please stay tuned for OPUS 40 Healing & Psychic Fair on Sunday, July 14th. Numerologist Lois T. Martin has promised me an interview on her Psychic Blog Radio Show in June, so this is something else to look forward to!

If you have not yet checked out Nornir’s Corner Sunday morning Weekly Rune draw, please return to this blog on Sunday morning to learn what the Runes have to say for the week ahead.

 

Rune Cast for March 17 – 23, 2019

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For those of us who did the mental housekeeping advocated last week, the Rune ISA reflects that for the past week productivity may have been at a standstill, but that these times are also key opportunities to do that work of mental housekeeping. Ideas that arose regarding self-limiting and self-defeating beliefs are subjected to “STOP-DELETE-RESET” – a wonderful mantra shared by my friend Rebecca Stewart from the Wind Clan.

For those of us who have done that work, the Rune of Humanity, MANNAZ, emerges. The week ahead will bring an emerging from the isolation of self into cooperation with family, friends, and community. The resulting blessing of these interactions is the promise of prosperity, revealed by the Rune FEHU.

On a larger scale, the practice of catching our limiting beliefs and self-defeating behaviors before they manifest is an exercise that will not only improve our own life, but overall contribute to improving the state of the world. Why is this so? Thoughts empowered by emotion are energy creations that go out into the atmosphere. Instead of creating a negative thought, I would rather be creating a positive vibration that will lead to further fun and adventure in my life!

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No hate mongering

This is a brief disclaimer: I use the Runes for divination and healing in service to humanity. The Nazis profaned the Rune system for their own ugly cause. I believe the Runes were intended to be of service to life, helping through divination (seidr) and chanting (galdr) toward such ends as blessing the harvest, working the weather, finding game, to bring good luck, mates, et cetera. It is in this spirit of creativity that I teach and work with them. I have no truck with hate groups or malicious treatment of other people.

Weekly Rune Draw for March 10 – 16, 2019

Wow! The Runes hit me time and time again with their powerful messages! Today’s message is the work we can all do on self to Awaken and ultimately the work we do on self will help raise the collective consciousness.

 

The Runes drawn from the Anglo-Saxon Futhark for the week ahead are Cweorth, Ansuz, and Ior. Cweorth is the Rune for the funeral pyre. What this means in terms of daily life is a strict mental house cleaning. Whenever self limiting thoughts and beliefs arise, catch them as they arise and “Snip, slip, delete,” as my friend Rebecca so succinctly said recently. When we take this action of mental house clearing, we can replace those self limiting thoughts and beliefs with a new and positive self-affirmation. If your thought is of unworthiness, change it up! “I am worthy!” “I am beautiful just as I am!” “I am loved!”

Ior is the Rune of the Serpent, and there is much that can be said here. The Serpent is the symbol of transformation and regeneration as she sheds her skin as she grows. She is the symbol of the kundalini energy that rises along the spine between the chakras, the twin serpents meeting and merging at the crown chakra in the sacred marriage. She is also the symbol of the sleep of the world. As we are captured by unfulfilled hopes and dreams and those reasons we tell ourselves why we can’t achieve them, we are caught in this round of sleep. Thus to do the work of mental house clearing is to begin and to continue to rise above that to the realm of the Awakened.

Does this mean we reach enlightenment? Yes, within our individuality. Enlightenment for us does not make us all the Buddha. I feel the need to speak this because of the “new age mental guru” types I have met and been disappointed by because I was not just like them. Each of us carries our personal blend of mistakes, successes, and memories that make us one of a kind people in the world. No one else will ever be just like you ever again. So let’s do the work, but as we do the work, let’s remember to celebrate who we are and congratulate ourselves for doing the work. It is each one of us, uniquely working toward our personal awakening that helps lift the collective consciousness from the sleep of the world toward cosmic consciousness.

That’s all for today, and may your week ahead be happy and blessed!

Renewal: from Burnout to Balance

 

 

 

I DON’T WANNA!!!

Today is one of those days that started with the thought: “I don’t want to.” I’m trying to build a practice of Rune reading and Art in the world, and the idea of committing time to job, household, meeting the demands of the winter months, et cetera, when I really wanted to cocoon with the sketch pad just seemed too large this morning. So I did what I often do. I grabbed my Journal and my pen and committed my feelings to paper.

The Rune reading for the week ahead predicted that this would be a challenging week requiring time to go within and to work on those emotions that arise in response to difficult life circumstances. And it has been. Today my personal Rune draw was Thurisaz reversed. For me in recent years this has meant confronting my own negative emotions as they arise and not giving vent to them. Today I recognized my feelings of impatience and anger and I chose to deal with them early. This is a good thing, because my day job as a school bus driver requires I be patient with traffic and energetic children.

So how did I transform these negative emotions into positive ones? The first gift I gave myself was the act of listening to myself. I responded with a plan. I know I have no outside commitments this weekend, so I will commit to giving myself a minimum of two hours on Saturday and two hours on Sunday to draw. Anticipating this mini-vacation will sustain me through the next three days of having to be responsible to the bills to be paid and my contribution to my household.

The second gift I gave myself was a gratitude practice. When I walked out the door in the dark of the morning I breathed in the beauty of the stars twinkling overhead, the crunch of the snow underfoot, and a car that reliably transports me here and there. I sent my awareness out to the Beings of Creek and Mountain and breathed in the essence of their calm-abiding presence. On the way to work I thought about all the supportive things my husband Alan has done to sustain me through last week’s nasty episode of sciatica. I have a great chiropractor. All of these things contribute to keeping me functional.

The third gift I gave myself was the gift of mindful presence. For me this translates into being aware of my body, my sensations, and my stance in the world. My stance is slightly crooked now as I am still hobbling about with a sore leg, but this is daily getting better. I find that the act of driving becomes a meditative practice and helps me to stop my thoughts. When the thoughts stop, those things that trouble me stop, and I find a quiet joy in the rest of the day.

I WANNA!!!

Rune Draw for week of March 3 to 9, 2019

The Rune Draw for the week of March 3 to 9, 2019 indicates a period of waiting (INGWAZ) – this might be for plans to come to fruition, for challenges to clear up, or even a birth, as indicated by the second Rune in the draw (BERKANO). For those who are waiting this is a time for replenishing one’s energy, a little self care, and for many of us it is a good time to use to go within and do some mental house cleaning. The final Rune (AC of the Anglo-Saxon Futhark) indicates that this is work one must do alone, so stand strong like the Oak tree AC is named after.

For those who would like an in-depth Rune reading on the issues confronting you this week, please email me at susan.hintz.epstein@gmail.com, call (518) 947-0645, or message me on FB. A Paypal option is available on the home page of this web site.

I have some exciting offerings going on. I have started a discussion group for those interested in learning more about the Runes on Facebook, called Wyrd Women. To sign up, go here.

Take care, and I will see you next week!