365 Days of Prayer – Day 124 – Finding Joy

Spring Crocus
Spring Crocus

I needed to share some joy. The world is so strange now. I don’t have to get up super early to rush off to my day job as a school bus driver. I miss my routines. I have time to work on my books and dream my soul practice into existence. I hear about people I know with COVID-19 and I hear about people dying. I read Cuomo’s email daily because I am impressed with his leadership during these harsh times. I get a feel for how this disease is spreading, the measures being taken to protect the people, and I do my part.

With social distancing, I had time this spring to notice and photograph these flowers peeking into my garden. I saw a Rose-breasted Grosbeak for the first time yesterday, but I did not have my camera with me. Some neighbors out walking their dog as I was out walking mine, pointed out (from safely across the street) a porcupine they had seen climbing a tree in the direction I was going and they had been. Their young boys have just learned to ride their bicycles.

Whatever we are going through, this is an opportunity to live large -take the time for expressing talents that don’t get used during the wage slave trades we exchange for housing, food, and the latest material gadgets. Take time to BE, breathe, find a mental break from the push and shove. Give your time and presence to your children. They grow up too fast. Find something you love to do to take your mind off of fear and panic. Because if you don’t, the virus wins any way. Fear stops life, it does not contribute to living.

Enough said. Today, God, I thank you simply for the flowers.

365 Days of Prayer – Day 96

I’ve had a couple months of working six day weeks for my day job, and I notice that without time for play or contemplation, I don’t feel of much use to anybody, least of all myself. I need that time for self examination and self reflection so that I stay in touch with my goals, my emotions, and for that which gives me the greatest joy in existence. For me that is this work with the Runes, writing, and spiritual practice. I want to encourage anyone who might happen to read this blog to take that time to know and understand your self, because God made you YOU, and that time to play is time to celebrate your unique connection with Source.

Dear Creator, thank you for time to breathe today. Thank you for time to cook and bake and get in touch with the basics of life again instead of always running to catch the next bus. Amen.

365 Days of Prayer – Day 93 Blocked Chakras

Today I am grateful for Tree Medicine as my friend “He” today helped me clear toxic energy from my Brow and Crown Chakras. I haven’t spoken much about these two chakras yet, and perhaps won’t for a while, except to say that the Brow chakra is a powerful center for developing one’s intuition and intention, and that the Crown chakra is where we, each and every single one of us, is connected to Source. In fact I find too much to say on these two chakra and the ideas that I will limit myself to the moment, and repeat, because I feel this is very important: The Crown chakra is where each and every one of us is connected to Source.

Friends, it does not matter what religion you have or what ideas you hold or whether your priest or pastor is someone you really respect and look up to. I want to emphasize again, that each and everyone of us is connected to Source. Source animates us, gives us our life, our breath, our being, and the opportunity to incarnate again and again in the physical realm. No one can experience Source in the exact same way that you can or that you will! And I want to emphasize how very special that is! So celebrate your religion, but honor the fact that someone else’s religion is special to them too! Celebrate your gods as I celebrate mine! Honor your Tree friends as I honor mine!

I somehow got off my original topic, but that’s okay too. It gives me more topic for the next blog!

Creator, today I want to thank you for my special friendship with “He.” “He” helped me clear stagnant energy from my upper story chakras today. But also I especially want to thank you that none of us will ever experience our relationship with you in exactly the same way. And because it works that way, the potential exists to keep life light, honest, and refreshing! Aho!

365 Days of Prayer – Day 86 – More Throat Chakra

Sometimes I feel really, really angry, and i need to speak my piece. Not my peace, but my piece. Not that anybody wants to really listen. Most of my life it seemed as if those persons who were louder and tended toward the chaotic were heard over and above me. Hey, my sibling took over the household with her temper, arguing with her boyfriend, and constant chaos of her “need.” Her “need” was usually to get driven here or there to be with whatever friend she wanted to hang out with as she struggled to raise her young son as a single parent.

Yes, I know she did not have it easy, but her own choices made her own hardships. I remember the time I walked into an argument she was having with Dad. She had pulled a knife and he was going for a lead pipe, and Mom was standing on the other side of the room uselessly wringing her hands. My sister fled out the door into the snowstorm and nobody got hurt that day. I remember the time my angel told me to walk through a closed door to her bedroom and her stupid boyfriend with the temper problem was posed in the threat of punching her pregnant belly and killing the baby. I told him to get out and he fled.

The point is our Throat chakra is a blessed way to express truth. We can express truth to help and to heal, or “truth” as a way to hurt another person, damage their reputation, kill their aspirations to our social circle, whatever.

Trouble for me was with my sister being so loud about what she wanted or needed, my wants and needs were not often heard. I learned that if I expressed what I wanted or needed it was often inconvenient for the family, so I ended up feeling like I got the short end of the stick. What my sister’s example did for me though, was to show me that actions have consequences. While it was a lesson she had to learn the hard way, I quickly decided that teenage pregnancy was not my cup of tea, so I avoided that trap. What I did not realize though, was that in not speaking up so as to get along, I was spending years short circuiting myself from my own happiness and freedom.

I learned the hard way that I make my own choices for love and for freedom. I learned to ask myself what I most truly need, because although others make take pleasure from what they give me, it might not be the thing to bring me the greatest pleasure. When I give voice to something now, I have generally thought about it a great deal before I speak, lest my words bring unintended harm or discomfort to another. Sometimes silence is my saving grace. Whether to speak up or not may often be a difficult choice for me, given my upbringing, but my words will always be as well considered as I can make them.

Creator, you are my saving grace. From you, humans have the gift of speech. The gift of speech can be used to illumine and to heal, or to drag others down to another level. Please bless our choice of words to be those in truth necessary to the moment, and help us to bless more than we curse. By thy holy truth, Amen.

365 Days of Prayer – Day 79 The Chakras – Day 9 The Call to Rise Up: Solar

Today is an absolutely beautiful day after a night full of rain. I took a ski charter to Hunter Mountain, and although their skiing will be slushy, their day will be sunny and bright. The Sun awakens us and makes us feel good.

My Gurdjieff teacher Donald Petacchi used to have an expression he got from his Native American friends, “May the Sun always rise in your heart.” He knew how to say it in sign language too.

His point was this: The Solar Plexus is a nerve braid just around the inverted “V” shape between our ribs. This area is where our formatory learning is shared: not the higher functioning brain (neo-cortex), but the first fundamental things that form our personality from ages 0-7. These things include beliefs, how to conduct the self socially, how to interact with other people notably our primary caregivers, how I see myself (self worthiness) and how I project this image out into the world. This is not an area of reason, but of associated groupings of memories, beliefs born of my response to an incident, superstitions of what works to win my way, and stuff like that. The Solar Plexus is the chakra of Will empowered by the desires and emotions of the Sacral chakra. Solar, Sol, and Soul all share the same root word that is another name for the Sun.

Between the Sacral and Solar chakras there are twinned aspects to process impressions that are reflected in the head brain in the form of the left and right brain. These twinned aspects of the mind are feeling and thought, emotion and intellect, intuition and reason.

Don’s teaching about the Solar Plexus being the formatory center, or area of first thought, is important, because when our personalities are formed as children, we have not attained the stage of maturity to sort out, or to reason with the impressions we receive. I think of the formatory center as being the place from which I am “programmed.” The subconscious holds on to every perception we receive, and there is a lot buried there, from which flow our dreams and patterns of reacting to life. This is important to self awareness, I believe, because from the subconscious arises material that our waking consciousness cannot encompass.

In Wheels of Light, author Rosalynn L. Bruyere notes that it is at this chakra that many people stop the flow of energy moving into the Heart Chakra. This blockage of energy moving upward causes the energy instead to move sideways to the left and get stuck in the area of the pancreas. Is it surprising that America has an epidemic of diabetes and heart disease?

When we instead allow the energy to move upward, the vortex of our Heart chakra can purify painful feelings and toxic emotions through the contact it holds with our spirit. Like the Sun calls seeds to life out of the fertile ground, and the rain that falls upon those seeds nutures their arising and well being, is the call upward from our Root through our Sacral toward the Solar and even beyond, to the higher love of the Heart.

Dear Higher Self, like the Sun you call us to awaken and arise toward the work we came here to do. Root in me, make room in the Sacred places, let my energy respond to the Sun in me, and even beyond, to the Heart where my joy lives. Let me honor my love and my joy today.

365 Days of Prayer – Day 67 Grace filled soul

Garden time

“When I want something done right, I have to do it my self!”

Well, yes, if this particular project is my own idea, and will be subject to my own brand of perfectionism, then yes. If I want something done right, I had better look to it myself.

Still sometimes life requires cooperation. And the need for cooperation can be downright funny – in hindsight. Especially when there are two of us working together and each of us likes to be right! I will probably never forget setting up the garden with my second husband. I learned to keep my mouth shut until he had tried everything and then calmly state what I thought might work. Our arguments did more than most other efforts did to teach me to hold my silence and to allow another person a process. At other times I needed him to let me have my process, so it was a two-way street. The reward was not whether he was right or I was right. The reward was the beautiful food we grew and had to eat well into the winter.

Creator, thank you for allowing us our process. Whether I am right or wrong. I need this time of discovery and error, this time of making mistakes and rectifying them in order to grow a more grace-filled soul. Thank you.