365 Days of Prayer – Day 116

This week we all got hit by a new worry – CORVID-19. On pay day I took myself to the store and was surprised to see all the toilet paper shelves empty. It seems as if with the concern about the virus, people’s biggest worry is wiping their ass.

Some of us can afford to isolate ourselves while we feel out the unknown consequences of this virus. Some of us cannot afford to isolate ourselves. So we go on, perhaps being more careful than previously about washing our hands and keeping our environments clean. And sticking with learning the facts of the illness.

A friend was telling me a story about how she had to relate to someone that it is not China’s fault about the virus, but that the virus is a random condition of nature that leapt from one species to another. It happens. Shit happens too. Nobody is at fault, but it did bring to mind the question of “What superstition will the religious wrong bring to blame the situation on?” They can’t blame gays like they do with AIDS, because anybody can catch this disease. But I heard Trump on TV blaming China today, so maybe they will run with that. Then the man avoided serious questions by talking for endless minutes about not shaking hands. Really? This is the leader of the free world? Funniest bumper sticker I spied about the election was “Put an adult in the White House 2020.”

The conditions of life are what they are. Maybe everything that seems “normal” has to be stood on its head so that humanity can learn to face life with more balance. For many of us, this means a hard look at how we need to slow down, or how do we support ourselves when the anticipated means have come to a halt, or what happens when a loved one drops ill? It may not even be the Corona virus at all, but something else, a heart condition, cancer. The events of the past few days just beg the hard questions.

When I face the hard questions, I have to pray. Prayer is my saving grace.

Creator, life is uncertain. I’ve always known that, but with these events I am really feeling that too. I choose to put love above fear. I choose to put faith above fear, and yet sometimes the fear happens. You have taught me to step into the fear, to face it down. When fear comes upon me, be strong with me. Don’t leave me alone. Thank you. Amen.

365 Days of Prayer – Day 105 Winds of Change

This morning when I woke up I felt that there was a shift in the local energy field. The winds were up and blowing in snow. I could feel a subtle shift in my own energy too, in such a manner that I know myself to be potentially triggered into a negative emotion behavioral loop.

I came downstairs. Was there a frown lurking on my husband’s face? Had I displeased him in some way? I no longer want to go there, I told myself, this could just be my imagination. I smiled and he smiled back.

I grabbed my coat and took the dog for a walk. This is weather that she loves, but the snow was the slippery kind underfoot and made walking difficult for me, and more difficult by the fact that she pulls as she stops to smell, dashes ahead, or to the side for a mouthful of snow. I could feel myself getting irritated, but this is her time to enjoy too, so I breathed deeply, exhaled deeply, took stock of my inner state, and recoiled the length of her leash so that she would have to walk beside me.

We got to the trail where I usually visit Hem. I became aware that I was getting dependent on him to help me dispel my negative inner state, and since I want my relationship with Hem and his grove to be joyful, I decided to dispense with my inner agitation on my own. Remembering what I had learned from Peruvian trained shamans, I prayed to Earth that she would accept my negative emotions as hucha, the dense energy she feeds upon. An enveloping “YES” of affirmative energy was her answer, so I visualized my “roots” growing out of my feet as I walked and sent my fear-based inner agitation down into the center of the Earth. When I reached Hem, I was feeling much better, and this is an exercise anyone can do.

I asked Hem if I could enter his energy field, and for the first time  in a while, Hem said “No.” I turned around and walked away, thinking of how often in the past I would not have taken “No” for an answer, and justified my response by some thought such as “Hem is only a tree, and I can take from him as I please.” The fact is that these trees are beautiful beings of nature and they have their process even as you and I do. Hem wants to sleep for a while as trees often do in the winter time. I accept that. And because I turned around and walked away when Hem said “No,” I think our relationship continues even better.

Odin, you have often reminded me to dwell in my light and in my joy. My own dark moods can turn me away from that until I face them and recognize the source of my triggers in painful thoughts and memories. But I don’t have to act any more from behavior patterns of the past. Thank you for solutions that work, and thank you for life, tree friends, and this very Earth we dwell upon.

Earth, thank you for your gracious bounty, shelter and support throughout many lifetimes. Thank you for digesting my hucha so that I need not bother others with my own “stuff.”

365 Days of Prayer – Day 98 – Changes

This morning I walked the dog to visit Hem, nickname for my tree friend. Enough snow remains that I could see blood drops on the snow where some small predator caught its small prey, the laws of nature to eat and be eaten satisfied. The tracks of the smaller animal, probably a squirrel, stopped just as suddenly as if some larger bird, perhaps a Great Horned Owl or a Cooper’s Hawk, had dropped out of the sky and lifted it away. I could only imagine.

Something has long bothered me in all of this. It is not the blood on the snow. I accept the needs of predators to eat; I love them as I love the entertainment of squirrels collecting their nuts  or a rabbit’s slow hopping across the meadow as it samples the most delectable bites of grass. I believe what bothers me is how some human beings have removed themselves so far from Nature that the natural laws have become to them as fairy tales.

What this has translated to in my thought process, is how some human beings have now become so protective of the small and helpless as to hate other human beings for not feeling as they feel. There was a Facebook move for a while demonizing Oriental people for eating dogs and cats, an act which is abhorrent to Americans. We love dogs and cats as pets, and as pets they become part of our human families. Then there are the angry Vegans who hate me for enjoying my meat at mealtime, because they have taken their love of animals into the act of not eating anything of flesh.

These attitudes even follow into the outward image of spirituality. I was once ousted from a group of “spiritual” yoga women in part because I did not agree that my spirituality had to follow their outward path. To me the spiritual path is an inward journey. It can sometimes be shared in ceremony and in ritual with other like-minded human beings, but basically each one of us is on a solo spiritual journey in this event we call life. In the old indigenous way I give thanks to the animal whose flesh I eat even as I give thanks to the fruit, the grain and the leaf. All have contributed in some way to my life and my survival, and when I die I would really appreciate that my body become part of the forest floor for the trees and other woody plants that I love to nourish their being existence. This is my practice out of my honor for life.

In short, I think that much of the human longview has been perverted into seeking that which makes us feel good for the short term, as opposed to seeking that which is. If we are to become awakened to who we are through awareness of the vitality of the Spirit that animates me, animates you and every other being that has ever lived or died on this planet, and renews itself accordingly through the birth, death, and rebirth of beings, we need to seek the long view.

Whatever practice an individual takes to honor his or her own integrity, I can respect. I can respect the Vegan and the meat eater alike if these actions are in accord with their self-awareness and spiritual practice, but when someone criticizes me because they find my spiritual practice abhorrent to their idea of what is good, then I am aware we can find no connection in common. I believe that this is a manifestation of the shadow side of the “good,” which seeks control instead of allowing the other individual the freedom to find and to be themselves. The Balance of God is as Divine as the Goodness of God and the Shadow of God.

Creator, as humanity struggles with itself to evolve as the human collective, I want to pray for the mercy of understanding and the justice of self knowledge. Thank you.

365 Days of Prayer – Day 75 The Chakras one by one Day 5 – Root again

Yesterday I gave you a quick practice on running energy up and down the vertical energy column as a method to shed negative emotions, or hucha. That was for clearing. This similar method builds upon yesterday’s method as a way to more permanently stabilize your presence in the earth through grounding energy.

Standing upright or sitting upright, relax into your breathing, and practice for a moment yesterday’s exercise of running energy up and down your vertical energy column. When you feel ready, send your energy down into the earth as far as it will go. I usually tell people to aim for the core of the earth.

When you have that accomplished, pull energy up from the center of the earth and send it down again in timing with your breathing. With your thoughts, create one or more roots through which you can call energy up and send it down. I forget just now whether it was Sophia Richter’s book or Galina Krasskova’s that recommended maintaining separate “roots” for positive and negative energy. The reasoning was that if you needed to send down hucha in a hurry, you could, because the energetic structure would already be in place for it.

Next you can try the practice while moving. Alan and I use this method while we are hiking to keep a good flow of energy going. Think of the walking trees in Tolkien’s story, the ones carrying the Hobbits.

You can learn to maintain energy work at any and all times, but please remember to give to Nature as she gives to us.

This practice of grounding ourselves is useful anytime and any place where the emotional climate can throw us off balance. Here’s an example – a Liberal at a Trump rally. But more seriously, we can use this practice of grounding ourselves any time we feel overwhelmed by the circumstances occurring around us, we are overstressed, we need to find inner balance, or maybe even just being around family at the holidays. This is part of my energetic practice when I am creating sacred space around me for entering into communication with the Holy. Just sayin’

Today I honor Great Nature by remembering that I am part of the universal life force energy that flows within and around me at all times. In the act of grounding myself, I thank you.

365 Days of Prayer – Day 67

“Make me worthy.” These thoughts I often have when I come before the Gods. I really don’t know if I need to ask the Gods for that, because it is an act of preparation I make, that includes getting in touch with my own conscience, asking myself if there is anything out of balance in my life that must be addressed before I seek the Holy. But I ask it, in case I have missed something examining my conscience, because I know the Gods have the power to open my heart, break open my heart if necessary.

Yes, the Gods have broken open my heart before. Pride can be that most obstinate of inner opponents. I can justify anything to myself, but when I hurt those I most love, I am also most out of sorts with myself. Because those are the moments my world is most out of alignment.

The Native Americans have their teachings of the Medicine Wheel. The Medicine Wheel is aligned in accord with the four directions, and each direction holds a teaching. In brief, the east holds the power of mind, of fire, of sun, of intellect. The south holds the power of emotion, water, needs, and desires. The west holds the power of the physical body, earth, death, endings, and harvest. The north hold the powers of air, spirit, and community. Within these four directions we can discern where life is out of balance and make redress.

So the prayer for today:

Make me worthy, O Creator. Make me worthy, not from pride or the falsity of ego. But make me worthy from the heart – in love and truth to be of service through the joy of sharing my gifts. Amen Aho