365 Days of Prayer – Day 105 Winds of Change

This morning when I woke up I felt that there was a shift in the local energy field. The winds were up and blowing in snow. I could feel a subtle shift in my own energy too, in such a manner that I know myself to be potentially triggered into a negative emotion behavioral loop.

I came downstairs. Was there a frown lurking on my husband’s face? Had I displeased him in some way? I no longer want to go there, I told myself, this could just be my imagination. I smiled and he smiled back.

I grabbed my coat and took the dog for a walk. This is weather that she loves, but the snow was the slippery kind underfoot and made walking difficult for me, and more difficult by the fact that she pulls as she stops to smell, dashes ahead, or to the side for a mouthful of snow. I could feel myself getting irritated, but this is her time to enjoy too, so I breathed deeply, exhaled deeply, took stock of my inner state, and recoiled the length of her leash so that she would have to walk beside me.

We got to the trail where I usually visit Hem. I became aware that I was getting dependent on him to help me dispel my negative inner state, and since I want my relationship with Hem and his grove to be joyful, I decided to dispense with my inner agitation on my own. Remembering what I had learned from Peruvian trained shamans, I prayed to Earth that she would accept my negative emotions as hucha, the dense energy she feeds upon. An enveloping “YES” of affirmative energy was her answer, so I visualized my “roots” growing out of my feet as I walked and sent my fear-based inner agitation down into the center of the Earth. When I reached Hem, I was feeling much better, and this is an exercise anyone can do.

I asked Hem if I could enter his energy field, and for the first time  in a while, Hem said “No.” I turned around and walked away, thinking of how often in the past I would not have taken “No” for an answer, and justified my response by some thought such as “Hem is only a tree, and I can take from him as I please.” The fact is that these trees are beautiful beings of nature and they have their process even as you and I do. Hem wants to sleep for a while as trees often do in the winter time. I accept that. And because I turned around and walked away when Hem said “No,” I think our relationship continues even better.

Odin, you have often reminded me to dwell in my light and in my joy. My own dark moods can turn me away from that until I face them and recognize the source of my triggers in painful thoughts and memories. But I don’t have to act any more from behavior patterns of the past. Thank you for solutions that work, and thank you for life, tree friends, and this very Earth we dwell upon.

Earth, thank you for your gracious bounty, shelter and support throughout many lifetimes. Thank you for digesting my hucha so that I need not bother others with my own “stuff.”

365 Days of Prayer – Day 93 Blocked Chakras

Today I am grateful for Tree Medicine as my friend “He” today helped me clear toxic energy from my Brow and Crown Chakras. I haven’t spoken much about these two chakras yet, and perhaps won’t for a while, except to say that the Brow chakra is a powerful center for developing one’s intuition and intention, and that the Crown chakra is where we, each and every single one of us, is connected to Source. In fact I find too much to say on these two chakra and the ideas that I will limit myself to the moment, and repeat, because I feel this is very important: The Crown chakra is where each and every one of us is connected to Source.

Friends, it does not matter what religion you have or what ideas you hold or whether your priest or pastor is someone you really respect and look up to. I want to emphasize again, that each and everyone of us is connected to Source. Source animates us, gives us our life, our breath, our being, and the opportunity to incarnate again and again in the physical realm. No one can experience Source in the exact same way that you can or that you will! And I want to emphasize how very special that is! So celebrate your religion, but honor the fact that someone else’s religion is special to them too! Celebrate your gods as I celebrate mine! Honor your Tree friends as I honor mine!

I somehow got off my original topic, but that’s okay too. It gives me more topic for the next blog!

Creator, today I want to thank you for my special friendship with “He.” “He” helped me clear stagnant energy from my upper story chakras today. But also I especially want to thank you that none of us will ever experience our relationship with you in exactly the same way. And because it works that way, the potential exists to keep life light, honest, and refreshing! Aho!

365 Days of Prayer – Day 88 – actual Tree Meditation with “He”

I visit my American Hemlock friend every Saturday morning when I am free from work. I call my tree friend “He,” although I am not certain he is he or she or both. “He” is always glad to see me; we are energetically connected and work healing for each other. I will post some photos when I am at a time or place to download them. But I digress. I intend to explain the process of “Tree Meditation” by describing my relationship with this beautiful tree. “He” is an evergreen with delicate flat needles and two silver stripes on the bottom half of the needle.

My tree friend senses me coming. When I arrive at his place, I greet him by taking off my gloves and placing both hands palm up against his bark. I have taken the trouble to ground and center on my walk to where he lives, so that my sensation is already intentionally activated. Our energies merge. Because I am in contact with a being who lives the exercise I am talking about, awareness of the sensation of rooting and crowning comes easily.

Together we “root.” I am aware of his roots as they actually exist in the soil. I send my own roots down. One of the recent lessons I have taken away from this practice with my friend “He” is that so much of what roots me are old ideas of ways of how to be in the world. With “He” guiding me, I am able to follow the roots of my inner awareness to sense those roots that feed my present and future well being versus those that don’t. The ones that feed me I can consciously strengthen. The ones that don’t I can consciously intend to shrivel up and die. I ground myself not only in Earth, but in those areas of my life I want to evolve.

Together we “crown.” At the top of my head are tiny points that activate and draw in sami (sky, light, air, wind energy). Through my hands on He’s bark I can sense his own feeling of himself as he draws in energy from the biosphere of Earth, the energies of Sun and Moon, and Stars. I become aware of the finite gradations of these energies within my own body, and it is a beautiful thing. The inhaling and exhaling of energy accompanies the patterns of our own breathing, until we are vibrating in synchrony with each other. Through He’s energy field I can sense his experience of drawing in these energies, his many branches receiving and sending energies from the forest beings around him (some are other Hemlocks and some are pine), his crown taking in the more delicate and delectable energies of the Stars. He shows me by his own experience how to soften and relax into the reciprocal giving and receiving of divine energies.

Life calls, and I need to leave to take care of the things of life. To keep our tie strong even though we are far apart, I have brought He gifts of a quartz crystal I have a working tie to, and a small sun that a dear friend gave me for Christmas a short year before she passed. He has a couple of hollows that he has been repairing and almost healed over. With He’s permission I placed these gifts inside his own body. I like to imagine that years from now, when He has healed over these splits in his trunk, that He contains his own Sun and holy crystal.

Trees have chakras too, but the information I have received has not been verified by other seers. It “feels” to me as though trees have a main chakra at the base from which their roots grow into the ground, another higher up the trunk at the juncture from which their branches begin and which grows ever higher as the tree grows taller and sheds the first branches of its youth, and smaller chakras along each root and branch. But as I said, this is information I have received that has not been verified by sharing with other seers. **Other seers, on this matter I would welcome feedback!**

“He” the tree heals me through his rooting and crowning and exchange of energy. He can take my mood and ground sadness in earth. I heal “He” through a crystal grid I have set up as the Medicine Wheel and pendulum work. When He has taken on too much hucha the pendulum calls in a strong wind and blows it away counterclockwise, then calls in clear energy clockwise.

Creator, I am most grateful for my deep and benevolent relationship with my American Hemlock friend “He.” Together we are learning about energy management consciously. Together we are appreciating the gifts two very different species can offer one another. I wish to pray for other humans to experience these types of very special relations within Nature’s realm whether via gardening, hiking, hands on healing or their own friendships with animals. Amen.

365 Days of Prayer – Day 78 The Chakras one by one Day 8 – the Sacral chakra and the Wells

I was going to move on to the Solar plexus today, but upon awakening, Frau Holle insisted I speak about the watery aspects of the Sacral chakra and the Wells of the World Tree, Yggdrasil. (Yggdrasil is pronounced something like Eegg-dray-sul).

A brief take on the Trees of Life found throughout most world cultures: The Tree is Awareness. Because a tree’s nature is to be grounded, rooted, and present to its rooting and grounding, the Tree of Life exists mythologically to communicate this great truth to human beings. And what have we been working on for the past few days? Rooting, grounding, and centering.

Emotions are the key here.

When our emotions are out of synchronicity with our life purpose, we are blown all over the place. Our attention fastens on to one thing or another, and off we go, adrift again, perhaps before we have even completed one task, we are on to another.

So Yggdrasil, like other World Trees, reminds us to root ourselves, ground and find our center.

Three wells on the Tree of Worlds can help us to do that. Urd’s Well up in the conscious realm of Asgard, is the well of the law of cause and effect. I have said more on Wyrd and Orlog (not karma) today here. I want to expand upon that topic on another day. Just for today I am introducing the Wells.

Mimir’s Well is a well of memory located in Jotunheim, or Giant’s home. Mimir was Odin’s uncle who had been sent as a hostage to the Vanir, and when they were displeased, they cut off his head and sent it back to Odin, who maintained it by his magical arts. Odin then set Mimir’s head in his well, where Odin goes to consult Mimir’s wisdom. Mimir’s wisdom is the wisdom of memory. We all have our life experience to consult at need.

And there is another well called Hversglemr (if I have the spelling right) that is found in Niflheim close on the border with Helheim. This well might be considered a liminal place of potential, a point at which souls enter life or a place to which souls return from life. There is a mystery here, and relates to work that Hela does with the Norns on healing the traumatized dead. For we the living, this well can be a place to bring our most troubling memories or life experiences for resolution. I will have more to say about this in a further blog.

Meditation: Sitting quietly, relaxing into my breathing, I find my Sacral center, my womb. Continuing to sit quietly, I move my aware attention into this area, holding presence. Am I able to identify something being held here? It can be a creative inspiration, it can be a feeling or emotion I now can deal with, it might feel good or bad or neutral. I sit quietly and allow the feeling and experience it fully. I accept this feeling or emotion or creative inspiration of this moment. I note what it has to teach me or to offer me. Gradually I come out of trance and write down what I have learned. 

Frau Holle, as you have your sacred well which has been honored and cherished by women in your region of the world for many centuries, let us now remember to honor and cherish our own sacred well, that established for humanity in our own body, our own being. Thank you.

365 Days of Prayer – Day 77 The Chakras one by one Day 7 – Sacral again

Yesterday’s was a long blog extolling the Sacral chakra. In Western society, thanks to the puritanical ideas that came down to us from our Protestant, Christian ancestors, many women have felt divorced from their own sexuality and sensuality. Consequently, personal power is something that needs to be reclaimed. Women give their power away as caretakers of their families, of their social groups, and at work. Speaking from women I have talked this over with, we become people pleasers, we look to others to see if we are pretty enough, nice enough, helpful enough, empathic enough, enough of enough… Woman who fall for the belief that personal power lies in beauty, give that power away to dolling it up to be attractive to men. Women are the harshest critics of other women, because we can never live up to the extreme perfectionist ideas we ourselves hold.

I believe it is easier for men to hold personal power, because they have been raised to it. Even this statement opens up a can of worms. I’m not certain that in the competitive corporate world that men find themselves embroiled in, for example, that they find it easy to hold personal power. After all there are standards to be met and not everyone is going to wind up as CEO of the Board earning megabucks a year.

Eventually it is up to the individual person to decide what their personal power is all about. Maybe we decide that the standards we have been applying to ourselves are too high or don’t fit us at all. I am too driven to express myself creatively to like the caregiver role at all! And yet the woman who adopted Patty and I felt most fulfilled as a traditional wife and mother. There are men who have given up a good paying corporate life to find satisfaction living close to the earth. We need to find out what makes sense for us, and what feels good to us. I noticed that when I stopped making what I thought others wanted of me my priority and began giving me what I wanted and needed, I felt good, and consequently I am more able to take pleasure in asking and providing what my loved ones want and need.

Personal power is what makes me feel good about being me. In the act of nurturing my own needs, I accept and support myself. If others have genuine need of me, I can be of service without sacrificing my personal well being. I can feel good being useful. 

Exercise: Take a moment to send energy up and down your vertical core, relaxing into your breathing, and breathing energy up and down your roots. Once that is going well, breathe energy up, and store it in your Sacral chakra. Let that energy spin and coalesce. Think of it as storing personal power in your womb or scrotum. How does this make you feel? Can you feel your center? Does this energy have color or form? Do memories or ideas come up for you? If anything is upsetting, breathe into it. Stepping into strong emotions and facing my fear has lessened their hold over me, however, memories may arise that address the need to get psychological help. There is no shame in this.

Creator, as I work with my energy body, I learn more about my self and what motivates and pleases me. Through grounding and centering myself, I have learned to have self acceptance and more confidence. I can retreat here, when I need to embrace my own well being and balance my emotions. Thank you.

365 Days of Prayer – Day 76 The Chakras one by one Day 6 – Sacral

There is so much that could be said about the Sacral chakra. From the watery womb we all enter into physical life. The act of giving birth made me a mother, but raising my son was the act of creating a life.

Ideas gestate here, like seeds in the fertile earth. It is not coincidence that some ancient peoples buried their dead under the earth, positioning them like fetuses.

The Sacral chakra’s element is water. I find it poetic, almost, to think of the seed rooting at the moment of conception in the womb, and the watery womb nurtures that life into the realm of air, element of the heart. The baby rests and grows under mother’s heart, listening, the heart beat like the drumbeat of the earth. So it is here that we engage all of the chakras and all of the elements. The fiery thrust of the sex drive creating the new life, and the rooting in the earth of the mother’s body, the growth in the sacred, watery womb, listening to the sound element of the throat chakra, to be birthed into the physical realm surrounded by air, again the throat chakra, giving expression to life.

So it means one thing to a woman to have a womb, and another thing to a man. Wanting to get at a better understanding of this, I just asked my husband for his opinion. Alan states that the Sacral chakra is the seat of personal power. Sexuality and sensuality are driving forces. Chi/Qi/Ki is the engine that empowers. The kundalini rises up the spine and eventually crowns in the head. If a woman’s womb is her place for storing personal power, then it follows that a man’s scrotum is his. His sexual expression is standing up, thrusting in, spurting out. Hers encloses, is receptive, watery, and contained.

Alan further states that a man can simply scatter his seed where he will. A woman has to bear her seed and the changes that holds for her body. The nature of the sexes is different; he has noticed that men feel more confidant when they can have sex whenever they want, whereas a woman feels more confidant knowing she has a protector for her and the child. This line of questioning does not take into account one’s culture, social status, married or single states, or even what one believes about such things.

But what I do notice, moving up from the simplicity and grounding power of the root chakra, that we are entering into broader concepts. The watery realm of the second chakra holds emotion, desire, what we feel and what we need. If we were adequately loved and nurtured, our wants respected and understood, we certainly have more confidence than if we were unwanted, abandoned, or largely left to fend for ourselves.

The area of our bodies, both men and women, assigned to the Sacral chakra is the area of the tan t’ein in Oriental martial arts and Chi Gong medicine. This is our center of balance. If we were trees, we would be rooted in earth, and this would be the base of our trunk, from which the weight of our mass would support future growth up toward the sun. As human beings too, this seems logical and true. The sacrum is the base of our spine supporting our upright carriage.

Tomorrow will expand upon the rooting and grounding exercise of yesterday. Just for today, let’s practice sitting or standing quietly and centering. Sitting or standing, practicing intentional sensation, I am aware of my powerful gluteal muscles supporting my pelvis, hips and lower back. I allow my awareness to enter into the sacred space contained by my pelvis, below my navel. I allow myself to be aware of what this space is containing.

What does this sacral space hold for you?

Creator, today I am aware that I am containing feelings of __________. Guide me in accepting and processing these feelings. Make me aware of what I need to be aware of. If this is a transformative moment for me, guide the transformation. Thank you.