Turning inward factors into my weekly Rune forecast lately. How you or I respond to events that happen to us can engender an entire wealth of experiences. Before I turned to face the unpleasant stuff in life it was easy to give up and be a quitter, but once I began turning to face my fears, I gained something from that simple experience: most of my fears are just ideas that live in my head.
When I face my fear, I ask myself, “What is the worst thing I can imagine?” After I get that list, I go down the items one by one, and I ask, “Is this even likely to be true?” Usually I can wipe the fear off the slate right there, but every now and then something will come up that gives me the goosebumps.
There was the time I casually said to my husband I would go on the roof to clean the moss off that was growing there, and then I froze on the ladder due to my fear of heights. I faced myself down and did the job any way. It had to be done. I shook the whole time, but once off that ladder, deep breathing never felt so good. But then there are the more subtle fears that have their roots in not feeling good enough or capable enough. These fears may have their roots in unresolved emotional issues buried in the unconscious aspects of our being. Some of these can be dug out with the help of psychological professionals, but when talking things out results in talking around things instead of getting at things, there is another thing you might try.
I have found that just before or after sleep, my mind is often receptive to the power of suggestion. I find those moments when I am consciously trying to work through stuck points to be valuable questions to ask of my Subconscious in just this way. Here is an ideal moment when the Subconscious and the waking consciousness can communicate. I had been drifting a bit in my spiritual clearing practice and noticing that I felt off-kilter. I asked my Subconscious upon waking one morning, “What is the next soul issue I have to work on?” I waited a moment, and I felt a black energy at the back of my head, just at the base of my skull where it meets the spine. Then I said, “I don’t know what to do with this!” Something in me took pause, and the energy reassembled itself into the symbol of a Black Swan and I “heard” the names “Leda and the Swan,” and “Swan Lake.” Both relate to how men have used women, and I discovered in myself there a deep pool of anger at men. As I learned how to work on these issues, layers began to peel away for me, and I am more able to step into my own power.
That experience was particularly deep, but I have also found this method to be a reliable guide to intuitively know what decisions are best for me, and those that aren’t. I invite you to try this method, and please share with me whether it works as well for you.